Control

When you explore the boundaries, you are bound to have a mixed bag . Just the fun of exploration and something that you will find will give you a high, and then there will be some which wont confirm to your view will disappoint and sadden you. Which is to be taken sportively. If life would be run in a predetermined fashion, it will be quite boring. The trick is to keep on exploring keep on pushing with an open mind, never get bogged down, never.

It is easier said than done though. I have always tried to make sense of everything, everything has to be in a packed mint condition in my mind. Its difficult and when you have an interest which kind of spans just about everything, its next to impossible.

The key which has worked in many cases is indifference, you just dont care either way is fine for you. This detachment of the result from your action, sometimes works wonders. It is not to be mistaken with the quest itself, which has to go on, in all seriousness but dont get attached to the results, dont have expectations, dont develop weakness. For, this world, people around have their own agenda, and every right of them to have it, it just hurts when you try to attach yourself and then get rebuffed. This was the wisdom which Lord Krishna was trying to make sense of to Arjuna.

Results are something which are not always in your control, which cant be , shouldn't be. You are not the only one in this world, You are not the centre of this universe, there are other people, they have aspirations too, and not always theirs will be aligned with yours.This much rooom if you allow to your thoughts, one can be so much in peace.

I am going to, rather try not get attached with everyone, everything, its not required. Maintain a layer of formality, artificial civility, its going to be difficult for I am not that type but I can no longer expose myself to the cynicism, closed, calculated, manipulative mindset of others. OF curse with a select few there wont be any logic, relationship will be as pure as it should be, no explaining, everything understood, liberties taken without asking, blind faith, trust , love and sharing. But with others it will be more 'reality types'.

Life is still beautiful, just that not everything is beautiful, no choice really good / bad have to coexist. Just d what you are supposed to do, dont wear your heart on your sleeve, not everyone will understand nor do I need them to understand.