Weired

When I am really sad, its just me and no one else. However I may try I never get it when I am normal or happy. The stillness of my thoughts, drawn inwards gives me a lot of strength afterwards and I cant say I like it but in a way yes. No other moment provides me the solitude to be with myself. Funnily I am quite relaxed during these moments. My mind doest wander off it just sticks by my side, I stare blankly, I can even look blankly at TV in these times, nothing registers not even the sound. Some kind of awakened sleep. The mind simply turns off ..... numb.