Peepli Live

I am doing this after a long time , this one was good , raw as life is, there is a certain randomness, aloofness of modern society, irony, a continuous churn which doesnt seem to have any sense or purpose, that sometimes feel like my life.

Wish list for this one would be , the characters Natha could have had more shape, its a quiet character so it lends itself to one imagination , but the narrative could have shaped it a bit better.

Thank you for a good Indian movie

Job

Few days back Venkat was in town , as we caught up with how our life has taken shape, we realized most of the time we have been cribbing about our jobs our managers. It felt bad we didnt have anything bright to talk abt :( ...

On my way back my thoughts wandered towards what Kiran once said "its your job man, at the end of the day that is what brings food on the table, pays your bills"

There are things we take for granted, .....

and then you cut me
"Na This is what you call defense mechanism .. you try to somehow justify your troubles "

leave it ...

Day Dreaming

bringing up your family
managing your finances
planning for the next cute thing for our house
planning for the next holiday, dreaming how it will all be
planning how to slowly build up our home in BBSR.
Dont need a whole lot of things, but nice functional ones, with a bit of style quotent
Reviewing the small cars available in the market, weighing the price considerations, thinking about the new BMWs in Hyd realizing they will not be in my grasp for....

Well so what...

Change

You see its 2 AM in the morning , so what are you doing old boy, talking to yourself at this hour ... I like the ring of this "Karthik calling karthik types ..." No No not in a sick way, there was a time when I used to talk to myself here in this blog, this was my place away from all the madness, I could be angry, I could be sad, I was a poet once in a while ....

I was listening to some music, some rock , metallica got me into this mood..As I was listening , I wandered to some of my old play lists some indian classical, some old oriya songs and then ended up with metallica and Led Zep... And that got me thinking
I am listening to Rock after a long time, change !!! What a change !!

Now a days my life is what you can call very mundane ,
I wake up ,
drop her in her aerobics class, (we are still in the waiting list for an Activa, I am eagerly waiting so that I can sleep a bit longer!! :) )
Then come back and catch up with all the news and mails,
prepare tea if I am not feeling lazy,
go and pick her up,
have breakfast
Go to Office and slog
Come back, catch an IPL match
Have dinner
Go to sleep
and the cycle continues, and there is hardly any variance.
and yet I am so happy

Did someone say , "And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years." Well you see how do I put it its all cause of her.

I have changed a lot, I am more content, happy, risk averse, homely ! cause I want to spend time with her, you are so sweet, so innocent, so beautiful, so caring ...you are mine. And I think by this time you know how much it really is, we are one, I have longed too much for your, for far too long , I needed you in my life long back. I can live like this for the rest of my life, I just need you, you are all that I need.

You came and took me away from everything, everything though which I used to define myself, I am so different now.

My dear blog

you know as much as I know, I am in a transition, THere are just too many things happening around me to pause , reflect upon things.

Love as they say passes through three stages lust, attraction, and attachment. I really havent grasped the excitement, I feel somewhat complete, content I wil pour everything, cant do it now I am distracted to observe, too lost to analyse ...

This time that year

its been a year, Last year this time around I was lost, staring at the voidness but determined to make something out of it.
It was a question of my relavance , relevance infront of my own self....

Jan 1st Dawn standing on the banks of Hussain Sagar Lake watching the sun come up , I almost spoke to it , looked ito its eyes, I am here still waiting admist all this mess, I have the spirit, give me an excuse .

Now, looking back at 2009 as important as 2003 , 1998 and 1995.

Marriage

visiting this after quite some time, well things have moved pretty fast ...

21 days to go and honestly, what I feel right now is a bit of a anticlimax. Marriage is so much more than being in love, its a time honoured institution and establishing it is a humongous effort. Its becoming so expensive aswell and so taxing , there is so much pressure, everything has to be right ...I feel the focus is really shifting from us to this thing called marriage, to this event , this one day match, this premier.

I am going to wear the traditional sherwani, well sort of sherwani ...on that day, I have never worn that in my life and never been comfortable with it really. but I spend a small fortune buying it cause thats the thing to wear !. And a suit for the reception , I was sweating wearing it in the store, yes the AC was on I believe.

Why cant I just wear a jeans and a T shirt , go to her place , hold her hand and bring her back to my house, we can all have a good dinner with music and all ....

she is also getting tired ...
For a girl its even more demanding, she needs more stuff than me, more elaborate ,
she is going to judged by more no of strangers than me .....
if at all we can escape to some place ... just you and me

I had thought of having a very simple marriage a very simple one , guest list not more than 20 or so ....I mean do 600 odd people really think of you....I wouldnt know 95 % of them and they wouldnt either , they probably wouldn't recognize me next time we come across, I would also not give a damn...But then its really not abt us ..
its the whole family thing ..society ...
why does it have to be like that .