Waiting for Saturday

Today I attended the first of the bicycle meetups. A bunch of guys getting together over some snacks, a cycling movie and some socializing was the agenda . Well first what struck me was , it was actually happening , I didnt know any one , met any one in teh group earlier , I guess the same went for others aswell, but here we are meeting and in general happy that we could pull it off.

While watching the movie , the interviews with other bikers, I guess I got the answer to what many people had asked before , why ? the treks the cycling why the hardship ? What do you get ? I guess I am idealistic in many ways, hopeless optimists at times, sometimes I go to denial mode so that I can just keep believing in the dream. Far too emotional and sensitive, I try to put up a "I dont fucking care attitude" so taht I dont ahve to care and get hurt in the process. I try to block out , sometimes quite sucessfully, I am beginning to learn that. This world, and its contents , sometimes suffocates me.

Trekking, Cycling is a means of escape from all that , where you , your body your soul come together to 'achieve' something. The "achievement" might seem very strange to others , 10 km cycling in 30 mins is a big deal , walkign the next 7 kms without a break is a big deal, reaching the camp site through all the hurdles is a big deal. thats what keeps me going , thats the fun. Its difficult to explain so I dont try, just shrug it off.A sense of achievement however small is mine.

When I first rode to office, I had to get down at two places to negotiate teh uphill, I couldnt ride the cycle. The next time around i promised I wont get down no matter what, I havent since , Now the goal is never to switch to 1*1 gear combination, I am trying, While riding back I dont want to ride lower than 2*4. Small , silly things to others, but thats how I have been all throughout, I try to make every moment something, in some way.

And sometimes life bores me too, crawls, days pass by, All these then become an attempt to pinch me that I am still alive.

Ohh btw this Saturday I am riding to Medak thats about 100 kms, I ahve never done more than 60 on a cycle in a single day, but I am all for this one, a little aphrensive but if I dont push myself I will never know, how far I can push, I can do non stop 20 kms so if I break it down I should be able to do it through the whole day.

So Saturday lets see how beautiful it can be ...