:)

I had wished for it, prayed for it, worked for it. This indifference, I think I have got it all worked out, but I am not sure about it, cause its mired with its own contradictions. To say that you want to be indifferent itself means that it touches you in so many ways that its still in your thoughts. Now dont be too demanding ...

Probably I neednt wrestle too much with it, probably it will take some more time, its slowly working right, so hold on.

When you have an injury, the brain releases chemicals that lessen the pain, to help you prioritise, get out of here first then deal with it and once the healing starts the pain would set in. For me the cycle is somewhere in the middle...After the fall I guess I entered a somewhat denial mode ....hoping against hope ......"Wasnt it clear back then when you ....." but still ....That was probably me trying to reduce the stress ...no there might have been a miscommunication ... :) Come on dude this is not your Neverland types... and then slowly you deal with it. The healing starts and you start thinking...

like that day in hospital, Will I be able to ride my bike again , Will my hand get all right...I didnt have regrets then, but I had these doubts about tomm ... I used to drive a bit fast, the road was empty so ...but ..

The wounds healed, I am riding again ... may be a bit wiser ...Now that I think of these two years 2007 and 2008... kind of similar. There are many parallels, may be the first one was his way of saying, dude take care, if you dont learn you will fall again and it will be quite nasty. It hurt for sure, but it was a nice rich set of emotions ...haha trying to dull the pain again ! what to do its quite nasty na :)