Baggage of my existence

if the weather would have been good, I could have gone for a ride
If I would have been in a better shape, I could have gone for the ride any way
If I would have got leaves I would be exploring vipassana
If Bhubanesware would have been nearer I would have gone home
If you would have been with me, nothing else would have mattered

But given that you are still keeping me waiting,
what can I do over the coming long weekend ?

I can hang out with some friends,
watch some movies,
do some shopping,
read,
listen to some music,
watch some more TV,
there is IPL too,
clean up my room ,
grocery and vegetables,
dream of monsoons
visit the doctor, second anniversary of my accident has just rolled by.
visit the Jagannath temple
Bike servicing
sort out the Taichovsky and Dvorak collection

too boring , how sparse and uninspiring most of it is ....

Is this how I am going to spend the majority of my life... making it from one end to another ?
You wont find peace if you want run after all these, why dont you just meditate, you know it calms you,

but that would be doing it for a purpose as a remedy I dont know I just dont feel right abt it , to do it to calm yourself, calm all that energy, restlessness.
I want to do it without the feeling the need to do it.

Why you are too proud to admit the need for it ?

Well this can go on , too demanding of me , I can always blog over the weekend if some interesting idea comes up, there are some interesting materials to be read..lets see